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What Happened Was By Katharine Haake

by on October 2, 2024

Katherine Haake’s What Happened Was captures the unsettling atmosphere of a post-apocalyptic world, a feeling that resonates profoundly in the aftermath of the 2019 pandemic. While Americans may have experienced the crisis with the comforts of modern living, Haake’s narrative reminds us that our version of the pandemic may have dulled our awareness of the true horrors felt globally.

“Someone turned the television news on to drown out the sounds of their whining, but no calamity on earth could compare now to our own.”

In her signature style, Haake delves into the mundane, transforming everyday moments into scenes of profound disturbance, reminiscent of Cormac McCarthy’s The Road. The book, set in what I imagine in the present or leading up to it, immerses readers in the grim reality of growing up and aging in America, namely Los Angeles. Through a blend of science fiction and literary chaos, Haake’s “accounts” in the first part of the book leave readers with the haunting sense that, despite glimpsing a harsh truth, we are left knowing very little.

“That was the first thing we learned, but not the last, after they sent us away removed of everything, all the way down to our numbers.”

Haake also plays with language, questioning the very structure of communication. The narrator’s rediscovery of lost words feels less like forgetting and more like losing a vital organ. This loss of linguistic depression underscores the broader disconnection that Haake explores with depth and nuance.


“It’s a flower, she said, the italics all hers, as if otherwise it might have been a railroad or rhinoceros.”

A powerful undercurrent of loss permeates the book, particularly around themes of motherhood and aging. Though I have not experienced parenthood, Haake’s exploration of the void left by children leaving home — and the simultaneous aging of parents — struck a deeply emotional chord. Despite not being a parent, I felt the void left by the departure of “the boys” and the subsequent ennui that Haake portrays. Her exploration of the human condition is both relatable and thought-provoking.

“We want it to be known that we did everything we could. We were vigilant and thorough. We tried home remedies and discipline, a regular routine, counseling, prayer. We watched over as she slept. And while it could be said we loved her — she was our very own — when the vapors started trialing on the whistling of her dreambreath and the barking never stopped the whole night through, we knew — we just knew — what we had to do.”

Nostalgia is a prominent theme throughout What Happened Was. Haake deftly captures the ordinary moments we take for granted, from a simple text message to milk in our morning coffee, and makes them feel distant and unreachable by the book’s end. The hints of metaphorical aliens emphasize a profound sense of disconnection to parts of our world.

“If we still believed in writing, that’s what we would write. We would write about the aliens inside. That’s what hope is like. It’s like writing.”

Structurally, the book accelerated like a fever dream, leaving the reader disoriented yet captivated. The pacing intensifies as the stories spiral into chaos, and “interregnum” becomes a recurring motif, symbolizing the gaps in history and time that are more terrifying for what is left unsaid.

“There wasn’t so much that remained, but all that remained was there, where we were, and by the time we convened we had begun to understand this. The portals had all been so efficient, everything gone down them — gone, gone.”

“A child — the last child — spoke first. Now what are we going to do?”

In a broader historical context, the stories seem to emerge from the void between the pandemic and the present. The “interregnum” itself becomes a character, shaping the narrative and highlighting the small, often overlooked aspects of life that can have lasting impacts.

“Of all the times to go off on a cruise, right at the height of the interregnum. And really, at their age, we think.”

“But we don’t really mean it.”

“Here’s what we really mean: Well: here we are, two hapless orphans all alone on the planet. Now what are we going to do?”

What Happened Was is a challenging yet rewarding read, urging readers to question whether to view these moments with lightness or through a lens of trauma. In the wake of the pandemic, Haake’s work resonates with a sense of “after-ness” that I for one, am still grappling with as we navigate this new reality.

What Happened Was is available now through 11:11 Press

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Sour Sun Fest Patio

by on August 6, 2024

On July 20th, 2024 it was a Saturday summer day. It was another hot summer night when we hit ninety-degree weather. However, Pound Booking had something in store for us to do this Saturday. They were having a festival at the Echoplex, a music venue in Echo Park Los Angeles, California. Showcasing eleven bands in total and the headliner band was Slow Hollows. They had a two-stage system to make everything run smoothly where the main stage was inside the venue and the side stage was their outside patio. This patio is where I stayed most of my time since I appreciate a more intimate stage where I can be face-to-face with the band as they play their set. I just feel more connected with the band and feed off their energy as they play their set. These are the bands that played on the patio stage. 

Dunk Pacino

An L.A.-based punk band fueled by donuts and rage!

Whoremones

Can’t tell from the smiles but this band makes angry music! 

Trash Day

This is an indie/punk band from Santa Cruz, CA delivering unadulterated musical garbage in the best way possible! 

Love letter

This band carried a lot of emotion in their set. Couldn’t help but scream along with them.

FLOATS

These tract suit-wearing Texas boys love to give a great show! I am always astonished at how they travel so much from Texas to LA just to play one night and then go home the next day! They gave one incredible performance leaving us wanting more.

Michael Arroyo is a concert photographer, who recently began using a camera last year after enduring hardships. Seeking an outlet, finding that photography was that for him. Finding his way doing live photography for concerts due to the authentic nature of concerts.

Book Review

The Electric Love Song of Fleischl Berger

by on August 2, 2024

Elusive Love, Loss, and Healing in the Electrifying Story of Psychiatric Treatment

As a writer who suffers from a mental disorder, I was immediately drawn to The Electric Love Song of Fleischl Berger, by David Rocklin, which tells us about the fictionalized life of a Jewish-German psychiatrist born under electrifying circumstances on the shores of the Baltic Sea.

A fascinating reading, The Electric Love Song of Fleischl Berger speaks about a man’s obsession with his own near-death experience, which led him to design the early versions of the Electroencephalogram (EEG). The novel also links EEG to the birth of the motion picture industry at the turn of the century. 

Few historical novels can keep the weight of the facts as the backdrop of the story. David Rocklin masterfully develops an intriguing plot that takes place between the Great War and the rise of the Nazi Germany, while presenting the history of psychiatric treatment in an imaginative love story without overwhelming the reader with historical facts. Instead, the historic events depicted in the story function as catalyst for plot development.

The novel grabs the reader with suspense from the opening line,

“The first time Fleischl Berger almost died…”

With the word “almost” David Rocklin sets a tone of anticipation and commits the reader to the entire story, which delves into each stage of this man’s life his historical backdrop.

Fleischl Berger is raised by a grief ridden father and mentored by the men in his community: a rabbi, a merchant, and a psychiatrist all of whom influenced the young man’s devotion to service. Gifted with the power of attentive listening and empathy, Fleischl discovers that he can help others recover from their emotional wounds, if not actually heal them. In his mentor’s words, 

“…in the end all men of psychiatry do is tend their wounds. We can’t heal anything.”

Eventually young Fleischl Berger falls in love with the merchant’s daughter, but as circumstances will have it, their love is interrupted by Fleischl’s decision to find his father, who is lost at sea. Shortly after, Fleischl nearly dies in an accident during a military exercise.

Fleischl Berger becomes obsessed with the experience in the aftermath of the explosion that almost killed him. Inspired by the creative spirit of his childhood friend and lover, he designs a machine to capture brain activity to explain what happened to him. Thus he creates a scientific instrument that will eventually revolutionize neurological research.

He carries out these extraordinary experiments as movie productions–and his justification to try to observe the human mind more closely.

“To the addled mind,” he said as the audience watched him closely, “illusions are real. They are the world left to them. To us, such people are lost in a world of their own. We try talking to them, but we can’t get through. We try showing them things they ought to know. Their wives, husbands, children, homes, even their own reflections. It’s as if they see something we can’t. Or else they see nothing at all. Our sounds and visions are no longer theirs. How can we reach them?

“I have a way. We give their minds something else. A piece of them that they’ve lost, only at undeniable levels to pry the window of their mind open. I’ve seen it happen – “

“… But this work will help those we think we’ve lost to injury, infirmity, to psychosis. I believe it with all my heart. And I’m here with your kind permission to show you. The louder and brighter the sounds and visions, the wider the window.”

As Fleischl explains his controversial and dramatic experiments with altruistic arguments, he paves the way to unprecedented progress in neuroscience.

Meanwhile, hidden in Berlin’s theatrical scene of the early 1900s, the elusive lover observes Fleischl growing as a scientist and entering the most influential circles of Berlin’s society. As he finds financial support for his experiments, Fleischl gets entangled in social intrigue and power struggles foreign to his personal search, but that will be crucial in his survival.

First the reader must understand that for Fleischl survival means more than beating death. Fleischl’s actions are driven by a sense of loss: the mother who died at his birth, the father who disappeared at sea, the lover who left after he broke her heart,

“I miss home,” he said, because he wasn’t sure what he felt and had nothing else to say that might explain the hole where surely something ought to be.” 

The novel carries this nostalgic tone, a longing for what does not exist anymore.

The setting helps create the nostalgic tone. This is particularly true at the beginning where the laconic landscape of a village on the shores of the Baltic Sea sets the tone with which the young Fleischl will grow. The sea appears first on view, dangerous, dark. It is followed by a row of small, rudimentary buildings, functional for a basic life where the merchants do business near the house where he grows. On top of a hill, sits the asylum that will inspire Fleischl’s vocation for healing. However, the setting also serves as a plot catalyst. Later in the story, the rough sea scenes set the tone for dramatic turns and plot twists. And when Fleischl moves to Berlin, the busy urban landscape of the turn of the century accelerates the action as the social scene moves between small theater venues, ball rooms, mansions, and academic lecture halls.

In The Electric Love Song of Fleischl Berger, David Rocklin gifts us with simple phrases filled with wisdom, like aphorisms,

“You will fail and fail, and with luck one day succeed. Go fail, Fleischl Berger.”

With these phrases, Rocklin offers the reader an opportunity for reflection, enriching the reading experience.

Fleischl Berger’s journey is the story of an extraordinary man, the history of the ECG, and historical fiction of a crucial moment in German history. But ultimately, what held me turning pages is David Rocklin’s ability to weave in the historical facts in fictional narrative using a love story as a thread. In his own words, 

“Do you want to know a secret I learned, Ava? All stories are woven with love. Maybe when all the stories come to have their silences broken, when they come to be heard, they come to those who love them. Who listens just for them.”

Perhaps what I love more about The Electric Love Song of Fleischl Berger is the way this historical novel drew me to learn more about the man, and what is not in the story: the scientific research behind contemporary psychiatric treatment, and the creation of the instrument widely used today in the diagnosis of neurological conditions. By far, The Electric Love Song of Fleischl Berger is one of the best stories I have read in 2024.

The Electric Love Song of Fleischl Berger by David Rocklin is available now through Thane & Prose

Lisbeth Coiman is a bilingual author and an avid reader. Her debut book, I Asked the Blue Heron: A Memoir (2017) explores the intersection between immigration and mental health. Her poetry collection, Uprising / Alzamiento (Finishing Line Press, 2021) raises awareness of the humanitarian crisis in her homeland. Her book reviews have been published in the New York Journal of Books, in Citron Review and The Compulsive Reader, LibroMobile, and Cultural Daily to name a few. She lives in Los Angeles, where she works and hikes.

Music Music Review

Dávila 666 at Alex’s Bar

by on June 28, 2024

After a five-year absence, in part due to the pandemic causing disruptions in touring, Dávila 666 has returned to the west coast like a drug-addled bat out of hell. Doing 19 dates in just about the same amount of time, the band has proven that they are still as locked in as ever. For those unfamiliar, Dávila 666 is a band from Puerto Rico (a territory of the colonial United States) that blends elements of 77-style punk, garage rock, and psychedelia together to create a sound that is at once nostalgic and fresh. They sing and belt in Spanish with a fervor that can be enjoyed with or without knowing the language. Their songs can be at one moment filled existential myopia and philosophical dread then shift to moments of resistance and resilience with some good old fashion carnal and romantic notions sprinkled in for good measure. The band sounds amazing when recorded; the layers of the dueling vocals and group harmonizations, the aggressive guitar and bass rhythms on some songs, with multiple layers of percussion coming from both the drummer and tambourine, and an unnameable playfulness that all comes together in a way that can hype up any moment.

Hearing the recordings does little to prepare you for the experience of seeing them live. We checked out the band on one of their earlier dates of the tour at Alex’s Bar in Long Beach and they did not disappoint. The venue is a storied place where many punk rock legends have come to play smaller shows. There is a charm and grit to the space that definitely has a punk rock vibe, but also a bit of Mexican influence to their décor. You might recognize the space if you’re a fan of the HBO series True Blood. From the moment the band took the stage they were on. The songs were loud and blaring but not overwhelming. The banter between the band members (only five members were on this tour) was humorous as well as pulled in the crowd. You could feel the emotions of the songs and the energy of the band. The band moved across the stage, playing off of one another’s energies. There was a level of impromptu choreography to the movements that made everything always feel tight and put together.  A Puerto Rican poet friend of mine casually mentioned while smiling that they were getting Menudo (the boy group not the food) vibes from them. I, without as deep of a cultural context of Puerto Rico and boy groups in general latch more onto the punk and garage elements of the band, casually pushed that notion aside. But the very next day a post promoting their show in Lancaster, CA mentioned that Dávila 666 was a Menudo on drugs. You’d be right to guess that I promptly received an “I told you so message” that day. That’s one of the band’s charms, their ability to reach different audiences and give completely different, though complimentary, experiences all at once. If you missed their dates in Long Beach and San Pedro, you are in luck because they are heading to The Paramount in Boyle Heights on July 4th before they swing into Arizona to close out the tour. Here’s to hoping that they come back sooner than another five years.

Honorable mention goes to the band Mad Menace and the Murder Dogs who had their debut show opening the night. While bringing in a bit of garage rock to the mix, they really channeled the energy and essence of Motorhead with hard hitting rock songs that packed a punch. The band has that classic straight ahead rock energy going for them that is missing in a lot of bands these days. For a first show, MMMD was quite tight in their set and the songs, while calling back to older genres didn’t feel like a recycling of a genre. Keep an eye out for them as their songs will be up on SoundCloud and Bandcamp soon.

  • Zachary C Jensen

Dávila 666 Photo by Bowie De La Pena
Dávila 666 Photo by Bowie De La Pena
Dávila 666 Photo by Bowie De La Pena
Dávila 666 Photo by Bowie De La Pena
Dávila 666 Photo by Bowie De La Pena
Dávila 666 Photo by Bowie De La Pena
Dávila 666 Photo by Bowie De La Pena
Dávila 666 Photo by Bowie De La Pena
Dávila 666 Photo by Bowie De La Pena
Dávila 666 Photo by Bowie De La Pena
Dávila 666 Photo by Bowie De La Pena
Dávila 666 Photo by Bowie De La Pena
MMMD Photo by Bowie De La Pena
MMMD Photo by Bowie De La Pena
MMMD Photo by Bowie De La Pena
MMMD Photo by Bowie De La Pena

Bowie De La Pena, a native of Southern California, is a dedicated photographer and student at Cal State Long Beach, a decision influenced by the city’s vibrant music scene. Bowie has been honing his photography skills for six years, with a particular focus on music photography for the past four. Initially inspired by friends who were talented musicians and skaters, Bowie picked up a camera as he found his true passion behind the lens. He started with a Canon 7D borrowed from his high school, which he used extensively before acquiring his own camera. His work can be found on his Instagram @bowie_stop

Book Review

Black Bubblegum and William Gonzalez’s Los Angeles

by on February 14, 2017

Black Bubblegum and William Gonzalez’s Los Angeles

Salvadoran-American poet William Gonzalez is intimately connected to the streets of Los Angeles. A product of the MacArthur Park, Pico-Union neighborhood, the man is an award-winning author, son, father and friend to all. Born at County USC-General Hospital, Gonzalez is Los Angeles as it gets. His first two books, Black Bubblegum and Blue Bubblegum are innovative works that peer behind the glossy facade of Los Angeles to reveal the blood and bones of the city. His newest book, Red Bubblegum, is set to be published in late Spring 2017.

A Poet Born for These Times

Gonzalez is closely connected to Los Angeles Poet Laureate Luis Rodriguez and Tia Chucha’s Cafe Cultural, the bookstore/gallery space Rodriguez co-owns and operates with his wife Trini Rodriguez in the Northeast San Fernando Valley. Their close connection is a dream come true for Gonzalez because Rodriguez was a longtime hero of his that he had read for many years before they met. Their friendship has developed over the last four years. During this time Gonzalez has connected with the legendary poet and done dozens of events at Tia Chuchas. Another significant voice from Tia Chucha’s is the prolific poet Jeffery Martin. Martin and Gonzalez are close friends that have collaborated on hundreds of readings over the last several years. Martin recently told me that, “William Gonzalez is a poet born for these times. His pen is concise and unafraid to speak about the world he sees and navigates through. He is inspiring because he writes the stories that everyone knows but few tell.” He tells these stories in Black Bubblegum.

Black Bubblegum includes 24 poems, 25 short stories and 18 pieces in Spanish. At just over 200 pages, the work is highly quotable. It also won first place in the New England Book Festival “Wild Card,” category in 2013 and won an honorable mention in the San Francisco Book Festival “Poetry,” category. Gonzalez has garnered these accolades because his work is equally inspiring, thoughtful, raw and hilarious. A core spirit of the book revolves around explicating his Los Angeles youth. In poem after poem and story after story, Gonzalez takes his readers up and down 6th Street and across Alvarado or as he phrases it across the “invisible boundary lines.”

Gonzalez spent many years of his 1980s childhood living on Bonnie Brae between Wilshire and 6th Street. A few streets east of MacArthur Park, this area is also called Westlake and it overlaps with the Pico-Union neighborhood just south. Known as one of the densest districts west of the Mississippi, the congested landscape surrounding his home made him acutely aware of urban reality. “Growing up around the MacArthur Park area during the 1980’s and 1990’s,” he tells me, “paints memories of living inside a third world country within one of the most powerful countries in the entire world. You name the social issue, and this was the area where a Sociology Professor could come stand on the corner of 6th and Bonnie Brae on a Friday night just to find out that everything he learned at an elite university was a lie.”

    The Biggest Rats in the City

After reading poetry with Gonzalez on several occasions over the last few years, we recently got together to chop it further about his work and the city we both deeply love. We met on a December Sunday at a Starbucks on the corner of Wilshire and Union because the parking there was free and easy. When I arrived he told me that on the north side of the parking lot where a larger shopping complex now stands was an apartment building he once lived in for several years called, “Los Campanarios.” He laughed and told me that the building was notorious for having “some of the biggest rats in a building in our city.” He laughs more about this and points out the irony of the Starbucks and corporate stores now adjacent to the same property. Though gentrification is gradually sweeping his childhood neighborhood, he vows not to let the history be erased. His prolific and candid writing ensures that the stories from his childhood will always live on.

    Swimming Inside Inner-City Los Angeles

In addition to living in the Westlake District, Gonzalez also spent a few years living in Watts and South Los Angeles. He moved to 112th and Central for a few years during his teens and he attended Cleveland High School in the San Fernando Valley. “I was the only Salvadoran dude on an all Black bus,” he says. One of his pieces in Black Bubblegum is titled “Unity,” and this is a principle Gonzalez has lived by from his early childhood. Though he was surrounded by dangerous elements, he was always able to survive, thrive and make friends with everyone no matter their race or socioeconomic status.

These formative experiences are central to his identity and his writing. “Living in Pico-Union/ Westlake area-South Central and Watts shaped me by teaching me how to navigate life on a daily basis while everyone around me seemed to drown,” he confesses. “It taught me how to swim inside inner-city Los Angeles no matter what was happening around me.”

In poems and short stories like “Mother’s Tears,” “Rascal,” “Murder,” “Paloma,” and “PJ,” Gonzalez celebrates friends he grew up with, local street vendors and remembers those who are no longer with us. Many of the pieces go back and forth between poignant observations and comical images in just a few lines. The short story “Ghetto Barter,” demonstrates how far someone will go once they become an addict. As sad as the piece, Gonzalez also reminds us of the absurdity of their behavior. For example, “Tim would end up bartering his car’s pink slip for two pieces of crack.”

Within the constant realism and tragedy that Gonzalez’s work conveys, there is also a great triumphant tone because he lived amidst it all by never fell victim to it. He celebrates his mother who taught him the value of working hard. She worked for years cleaning hospitals before opening her own Botanica in 1983. “I learned from my mother not to ever accept free money from the government,” he says, “and how to make money. Two of the most important lessons ever.” He also appreciates her because she taught him how to have compassion for others. He pays tribute to her in the poem, “A Mother’s Question.” He is carrying on his mother’s steadying influence as the father of two daughters. His daughter recently read her poems with him at Tia Chuchas. Being a dad is a top priority for Gonzalez. He attends every event his daughters are involved with. “I didn’t have mentors growing up,” he shares. “My father left me on my 5th birthday.” His desire to be different from his own father is why he works so hard and is so attentive to his children.

A Massive Tsunami

As his own childhood unfolded, the neighborhood evolved and slowly became what it is now infamous for. “I clearly remember when both theatres were open on Alvarado,” Gonzalez recalls. “I am talking really early 80’s. Things were actually pretty calm during these times like tiny ocean waves dancing to soothing music right before a massive tsunami hit.You could walk to MacArthur Park, buy nachos, and a soda pop for three quarters at an actual concession stand, then walk over and ride the pedal boats through the lake.”

The short story, “Ducks,” captures the dichotomy of MacArthur Park. Once called Westlake Park and considered the crown jewel of Los Angeles parks and the entire L.A. Parks and Recreation Department, Gonzalez explains how now, “You can see plastic cups, spoons and plates floating on top of the lake’s green mawkish water. Dark black clouds slowly creep over the park, attracting the criminal night shift.” In spite of the pollution and the park’s nonstop action, dozens of ducks still call the lake home. Gonzalez captures all of this. He has seen the park in all of its ranges from the pedal boats, fresh nachos to the criminal underworld. He points the finger at crack cocaine as the force which made everything change. “Massive oceans arrived inside slices of crack cocaine,” he explains “and literally set everything around us on fire. Something within me gave me an ability to sense change in people around me.”

The local gangs evolved just as quickly. “The gangs went from fist fighting to stabbing, from stabbing to shooting each other,” he says. In the short story, “Zipper,” he describes a driveby shooting of a young gangster “Little Joe,” and the ladder of staples used to sew Little Joe’s chest up after he took three bullets. Gonzalez laments, “Six months later Little Joe is back out on the streets throwing up gang signs. He lifts up his shirt to show everyone in the community the permanent zipper on his stomach bragging about it like if the zipper is some sort of honorary stamp.”

Gonzalez does not judge these figures in his work, he just wants to record their stories. He hopes that readers can understand the real beat of the city through his work. Most of all, Gonzalez loves his people and hopes that his eyewitness accounts can lead to greater awareness and redemption. In poem after poem and story after story, he tells it like it is. “I remember a very nice family man who lived on our block,” he says. “He went from a regular human being to instantly turning into a crazy man taking off his clothes and running naked down the street during rush hour. (to walking like nothing had happened the next day.)”

 

Breaking the Cycle

Gonzalez tells me that in junior high school he had a teacher named Mr. Lawrence that recognized his talent and encouraged him to write his own stories. He has always loved reading authors like James Baldwin, Luis Rodriguez and Kurt Vonnegut. He slowly began writing his own poems through his teen years. “Poetry began to inspire me when I would tag words on public walls in Los Angeles during the 1980’s-1990’s,” he says. “I was addicted to words that rhymed. This began my quest for building up my vocabulary word by word.” He wanted to tell the truth as he saw it and not sugar coat his words. “Flower poetry didn’t interest me; so I would write quietly and without people seeing me write about the realities I was facing.” He tells these realities in pieces like “Pomegranate,” and “American Apartment Scene.”

In a piece titled “3:40 A.M.,” he closes the poem with, “The million dollar building is now complete/ No more work, no more money, the laborers are now obsolete.” Gonzalez writes his work for “the hands that built L.A.” While we sat and spoke at Starbucks that Sunday, he coincidentally saw a few of his old friends who warmly greeted him with reverence and enthusiasm. Los Angeles will always be his home.

The last lines of his poem, “Invisible Boundary Lines,” capture the spirit of his work: “A place where human souls are made out of stone / Westlake/Pico-Union district a transient abandoned zone / where the son of an immigrant will one day reach a writing milestone / by scribing true authentic words in the middle of their backbone.” There’s no question that poems emanate from the center of William Gonzalez’s backbone. After winning a few awards for Black Bubblegum, he is excited for what the future brings and the release of his next book later this year. Though many writers attempt to make the claim, William Gonzalez really is a poet for the people.

Black Bubblegum and the forthcoming book Red Bubblegum can be purchased at Tia Chuchas Bookstore in Los Angeles or on Amazon.